hell.
im not fond of watching news...actually i dont watch news advisories. in fact, when i browse through the internet i barely gave my attention on reading the full length reports, instead i just read the headlines on yahoo! news and then fulfill my need to goof around my fave websites.

i went to school. the jeepney stopped near the law building, i got off and headed forward to my stat 101 class. during the lecture, i lent my ears to our professor and just dozed off from the ticking of the clock in our room. when all was over, i walked past through a lot of up buildings, barely noticing the posters of some activists which were said to be abducted by some armed men. i didnt give a damn, i just toddled on.

at our org tambayan, i did the stuff i ritually do. i sat, chatted with some orgmates and read my notes. then i noticed an issue of the school paper. it caught my attention when i saw that it was colored...i flipped throught the pages and read stuff about all the rallies, tuition fee hikes and abductions. wth...something stirred me.

parang may namukadkad. napaisip ako. grabe na pala. sobra. pero pagkauwi ko, tulad ng karaniwan kong ginagawa naglaro na naman ako ng freestyle at sro, tumingin sa mga bagong blogskins, nakinig ng ilang piniratang mp3s at namahinga. pagkakain, kinuwento at ipinakita ko sa nanay ko ang tungkol sa pandurukot ng ilan sa mga schoolmates ko. sinabi niya na natagpuan na daw ang bangkay ng isa sa kinidnap, nakita daw sa malabon at "decomposing body" na nga daw ika ni ina. nagulat ako, ano bang alam ko, eh nasa loob ako lagi ng kwarto at hindi ako nanonood ng t.v.

wala akong masabi, gusto ko lang mag-blog bigla. ang hirap, lahat pala tayo hindi na ligtas.
ansama ng pakiramdam ko ngayon. parang may isang drum ng hangin sa dibdib ko na gusto kong ilabas sa isang buntong-hininga.


tila may isang impyernong nagbabadya. shit.